dating

so i told my highschool friends to set me up on a date. the thought runs chills down my spine. what if i dont like him from the start? what to talk about? what to wear? what if we have totally nothing to talk about anymore? what to do after if you dont like him?

why go out with a complete stranger? sounds insane to me. on the other hand, it is still just as difficult and awkward to think of dating a guy friend. for one, you definitely have something to talk about. you have things in common. you know he's great to hang out with. you know how he looks and sometimes this wont matter as much coz you already know the personality -- so in a way madadala na lang yun kahit di mo talaga type. he's probably seen you in your worst and knows trash about you but likes (as in you are friends) you anyway. BUT if things turn sour then can you just go back to being friends? Won't it get weird transitioning from thinking of him as a friend to something more?

I really try not looking at guys (guy friends) as prospects so that you can see and get to know them in a very objective light. Not just seeing the pogi points but knowing them for who they really are. It makes it extra difficult though to see them in a different light afterwards. The problem with me is that if i like a person as in crush-like then i become weird around them. hahaha -- eto na ang effects of growing up in an all girls' school. I think that i'm very obvious around my crushes.... i might either just keep on smiling, be too conscious about myself, or be masungit to counter being obvious.

SO. How DO I meet my 'One'? Am I even fit for this relationship stuff? Is it meant for me to pair up or maybe i'm meant to be single forever?